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26-Feb-2003 - Afternoon - G.S. KAVI / SELF INTERVIEW:
**1**QUESTION: Why you appear to be retired?
*****ANSWER:
Im not retired, I just shifted the place for living. I am a
vegetarian w/strong religious tendencies. Life for me in the borough I lived
almost all my life, around the year ninetyeight, begun to be very difficult,
its not easy for a vegetarian adolescent to live in a place where the main
source of income for the factories in the place comes from the killing of
animals: read all type of animals: fish, poultry... but mainly pork and
sadly: beef so the mood of all the little people there was very uneasy
with me, and Im no talking about the butchers, how I will known them if I
never go to any butchery to buy their sinful products?! No, I am talking
about the other people, the rabble, what is commonly known as: the great
unwashed, the lower classes or the nano-burgeoisie...they are the problem,
the people who support the killing of the cows eating beef and becoming
walking cemeteries instead of being persons. So all this canaille has
prosecuted me in subtle ways, with mires to brainwash me or to corrupt me
moraly and emotionally, its like when you read the Bible and you find a
gospel about Jesus when He is taken to cure some person who has a demon
inside... by evidence of the Bible we know that in the past, in the biblical
times when the world wasnt so degenered like it is now, nevertheless the
FIENDs already existed and is since those days of yore that the human beings
are victim of FIENDic posession, you can find the proof in the Bible, where
is told how Jesus Christ had to cure peoples who had more than half a dozen
of FIENDs inside of their bodies...
**2**QUESTION: What you think is the worst thing about this town of
the butcheries?
*****ANSWER:
When you go to sleep in this place, if you have a reputation of incomformist
or of friend of the animals, the FIENDs make the negative force enter your
body while you are asleep and this force sucks you from inside... can you gauge
the proportions of uglyness of this fact? The point is, I was very threatened
by the FIENDs in my mothers place, and the devil acts like that, he is all
the time trying to corrupt you moraly: to make you think that you have this or
that defect, or to make you believe that you have not any kind of future.
Well, it took time for me to realize it, thanks God my home was a happy one,
till I had to leave it because in the last times, when I knew the vegans and
frugivorians and mixed too much w/them trough their alternative presses, the
story changed, it begun to be unbeareable, I felt that I didnt wanted to
continue staying there, unbeareable for me wich Im still growing, not for my
mother whos a heavyly religious person, more vegetarian than me since the
middle eighties and whos also untainted by any vice. It was very FIENDiac, I
remember the last months before leaving Argentina fOR eVER as I liked to say
from that moment and as I still like to say those months, the last months of
the year 2000 were really hard to live for me, the feeling of loneliness and
mental decease that I had in october of 2000 is something that I dont wish
to anybody... But the germen of all this final painful moments in .AR where
originated in other moment... and figure how much disrupted I was in that days
to be precise: the days of march 2000 when Ive done the collection: Gimme
the Mingvs, compilation thatll came to the colly that I dont like so much
like the others, and probable one of the reasons that added to my wishes of
quitting the colly format, I dont know how I could greet some decadent
villeins that everybody knows in the scene and hates for their bad deeds
since the BBS days of the middle nineties... yes, I am talking about nameless
and /, to be precise: SORRY, well never wish to be like you... Marcelito-
confidence-man, sorry, sorry, SORRY, specially to the public for bringing the
subject again of what happens when in an enviroment like the scene where the
brotherhood and palship is supposed to be strong for not degenerating our-
selves into mercernaries of the first warez group that appears, the story of
what happens when one betrays the whole scene publishing programs with ill-
willed procedures... I APOLOGIZE for myself that I have brought him to your
mind in this colly of 4 years before but how I could forget who this person
was??! sorry... and the other is / who publicaly hates Remorse saying that
the members of Remorse are facists, while he himself is the son of a police-
man. One of the works that in argentina is known as a work for fascists, thats
why there, the youth hates the police an the police repress them brutally.
So I think that for strata of the scene, more elite and more friends of mine
than / and the unnamed, r-gmtm100.txts greets could appear sort of done
by a person w/maniac depressions, something that I am not, but in those days
of 2000 I precisely begun to be ill of depression, because my leaving of moms
home was inminent. This, but not the logos, was what has made me loose regard
in the colly format, Ive begun to like very much the concepts you can design
in the format pack, wich is obviously less limited than the collie format....
After all the points: was very pointless to continue living there and also
very pointless doing something more besides not thinking what to do of my
life.
**3**QUESTION: what have you done after leaving home?
*****ANSWER:
First I went to North America, then to Europe... finally Ive came to Asia,
where I am living and where I was living for the last three years and a half,
I am very much more better now, I HAVE TO ACCEPT THIS ALSO. I can note it
even in my own self... when I used to pass a long night using the modem in
that borough of Bs.As., and going to sleep at 3:30am or 4am, the following
day I used to wake up with wrinkles and eyebags like if I was doing LSD
and angel dust the entire night before, but no, its because of the SHA of
the places like this borough. Do you know whats the SHA?
**4**QUESTION: No, whats the sha?
*****ANSWER:
The sha is the negative energy and in this place, the sha is everywhere, you
see the difference of the place to other boroughs of Bs.As in a very differ-
ent way. I have concluded that the place was different because of the deba-
sed sorroundings that emanate this sha, specially the bloody gutters of the
streets...
So I have taken it too much seriously, if you are a person religious and also an
artist, specially because of the combination of the two personalities, so why
I, being like this, have to disrupt my developing letting me stay there with
the inertia doing of me its own man of straw? Well, I am not fitted to live
in a babilonically fallen place like the western side of the Buenos Aires
City, the Capitol of the Republic of Argentina... but if adds to the subject
and if you know about the situation in the latin american countries, I can
say that for sure that there exist lots of persons who feel like me in latin
american places, because they are SEEING HOW THE SCOUNDRELS THRIVE in the
philosphy of the Big Brother, if you have read George Orwell you know what
Im talking about... seeing this and never being able to live w/out the fear
of all type of injustices from the terrorist states... the need of finishing
with it makes one decide of leaving the place... thinking always, if you are
a white latin, as they call it there in argentina: on returning to THE MOTHER
LAND. Some Indians ask to me: Hey, whats your motherland? in the streets..
**5**QUESTION: So whats your Motherland?
*****ANSWER:
But I never remember of telling them that my oldest motherland is Scotland,
then Albany and or Italy and or Spain, but if I have to trace my origins I
conjecture my ancestors from my mother are african-scottish immigrants, her
surname is kind of African-scottish, and other of our ancestors have a name
wich appears to be euroindian, but for what I really know is that from my
mother theyre from Italy and Spain, euroindians, but I am latin... but I
have came to this place and is precisely here where my true nature is exposed
and can express to you with the most deep sincerity and power. I didnt liked
the feelings I have get when reading the information in one of my collies
done in this last days in Bs.As, it seem as w/the passing of years, just
because I momentariliy retired from the scene w/out formalizing a retirement,
anyway just because this 3 years that took to me to settle in India, I found
that the sense of my own words that are saying something very concrete:
Finally Ive decided to stop doing collies, this is the last one
--mKD/r81, October of 2000, in the collie: bOARD dESIGN for Remorse.
the final farewell to the collie format from myself is this collie
--mKD/r81, October of 2000, in the collie: bOARD dESIGN for Remorse.
But everything in this life has an end. And this is the end of my career as
a collie compiler, not as an ascii artist/designer
--mKD/r81, October of 2000, in the collie: bOARD dESIGN for Remorse.
You see, I never talked about any retirement: I think the text-art scene
has a flavour of its own and the concepts are enough on themselves, its
not necesary to stuff packs w/files of this kind, but I think I needed to
explain that Ive never retired, I have just gone away from the place I was
before, look how is the story: I could buy a PeeCee only after three years
of being in India... and if you like advices I can tell you: the life w/out
the computer, for a person whose lifes the computer, its clear, life like
that is like death. Just think carefully if you really need to leave home, as
I did and as sooner or later all do...
Other point of my scene-life during the last year: the last year I had the
inspiration to draw again, I have begun w/the Prana Express at school, and
was a very crazy project, running a group w/out having a computer... well
while I developed the packs in India there was no problem, but the times I
have released from Nepal: specifically the packs number 6 and number 9 I
have had serious problems and commited some errors, as I explain in the info
in this pack theres the remake of The Prana Express 6, please take a look
to it, specially to the .NFO, there is the explanation on how more or less
was the experience of running a text-art group w/out having the computer.
**6**QUESTION: And whats next?
*****ANSWER:
MHHHHHHHHHhhhhhh... whats next: as you can see, AT LEAST nO-mORE-pRANA
eXPRESS... I dont want to share groups w/Arl anymore, sorry but I am very
tired of him, each time Ive felt some misery while in the scene in .AR And
Im talking about scene parties, meetings 2600, raves and the like always
the bad feelings were about something related w/him, although if you study
him youre going to note that he gives very much importance to appearences...
while I CAN TELL YOU I SAW HIM scalating from the dregs of argentinian under-
ground bbs scene, The first time I had news of / was in 1995, around July
all for what? For 9 years later that worthless hobby he has of VJaying? I
never went to a any of those shows organized by him so I cant judge, the only
thing is that I believe that if youre a VJ you have to have a carefully
chosen repertoire of digital-artz but being meticulous of not taking scene artz
out of its context... I dont know, I KNOW ONE THING more I saw, around one
year before about the .ARScene: they were selling email accounts w/the domain
@scene.com.ar... I disliked this deeply, I saw it as what apparently it is in
fact: a bunch of ppl w/out scrupules trying to make money all the time w/no
regard for nothing. Concluding, I will want to form a big and strong group
of digital artz, something w/the one and only end of doing art, but I will
want to include all the types of digitals artz as possible, read: ANSI, ASCII,
OS and NS XBIN, RIP, HiResolution GFX, Tracks, Lit and maybe also demos and
intros, but thats not an easy task... and in a more distant future I want to
create a firm of digital entertainment... Gamez, Anime and so But as I say,
it is difficult to run a group w/the wish of becoming a new ACiD but its
the only kind of thing that will motivate me to eventually return and appear
in the alternativeunderground scene of digital-artz... Who knows, maybe I
will regain my taste for compilations, but whats interesting me, personally
nowadays is Tracking and Ascii NS, two disciplines that will require too much
practice from myself before you see something released, I cant give you
something of low quality, we had a lot of that when we were 18 years, Im 26
now... and other thing I am doing besides the literature and the projections
of tracking and drawing NS, the other thing is coding, maybe I will end up
being a demo-coder... I dont know by know, but more or less that, I will
study mathematics, yes, but Ill continue being an artist, is not that I will
become enginneer or consultant I want to be a professional programmer, and
a famous poet/narrator, among other things...
**7**QUESTION: wishes?
*****ANSWER:
I want to keep those things in confidence only w/myself, but I can say that
Ive seeing very crude things lately and I saw lots of different types of ruin
of the life, one of them is embarrasement: I dont have bills and I dont want
to have problems w/bills... I declare this wish.
End of the self-interview.
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sHREE sILAS gUHA kAVI: sELF iNTERVIEW
At first was the Commodore 64 in 1987 .
: Then the XT/VGA/FLOPPY of the early :
: nineties... By 1994 my life changed
. when Ive received a present from my
consultant friend Sebastian: the 286. :
: And yes, after that, a trading peecee .
. the 386 that belonged to BP/Prestige!
: Soon after it: the first Pentium, and .
. soon another Pentium. My last peecee :
: in occident was a K6-II...
: Now its time for a COME BACK, I HAVE .
. RETURNED! I hope that now its for :
. ever: I COMEBACK and with another old
. Pentium and the first production is: :
: tHE dEATH oF tHE pRANA eXPRESS .
. Explained, along with other facts of :
. my personal life that I want to share .
: Plase leech, read and meditate. --sGK :
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