__ __________ ______ /_//__\\___ / |__| __> +-\___ | (__/| | | _>-------------------------------------------------+ / / | | | | | __/ ___ ___ ___ |_______ [/] SELF INTERVIEW [\] :\______|:/____|:/____|:/__|:::::::]____ ___ ______ ______ | __(__))____((_ ___ __)(___ / //---.____ _((__)__((___ //__/\ \\ |/ / |/ \ (__/ : : /_\ (__/_ /\ / \_ / . :__ : : /sGK /___ ___/ ___ .__ :__ : \__ ¦ ____ __ : //r81 +---/_____/-/_____/-/____:-/____/-/_:----\_____/----\_____/-/____:___/\__/----+ 26-Feb-2003 - Afternoon - G.S. KAVI / SELF INTERVIEW: ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ **1**QUESTION: "Why you appear to be retired?" *****ANSWER: I'm not retired, I just shifted the place for living. I am a vegetarian w/strong religious tendencies. Life for me in the borough I lived almost all my life, around the year ninetyeight, begun to be very difficult, it's not easy for a vegetarian adolescent to live in a place where the main source of income for the factories in the place comes from the killing of animals: (read all type of animals: fish, poultry... but mainly pork and sadly: beef) so the mood of all the little people there was very uneasy with me, and I'm no talking about the butchers, how I will known them if I never go to any butchery to buy their sinful products?! No, I am talking about the other people, the rabble, what is commonly known as: the great unwashed, the lower classes or the nano-burgeoisie...they are the problem, the people who support the killing of the cows eating beef and becoming walking cemeteries instead of being persons. So all this canaille has prosecuted me in subtle ways, with mires to brainwash me or to corrupt me moraly and emotionally, it's like when you read the Bible and you find a gospel about Jesus when He is taken to cure some person who has a demon inside... by evidence of the Bible we know that in the past, in the biblical times when the world wasn't so degenered like it is now, nevertheless the FIENDs already existed and is since those days of yore that the human beings are victim of FIENDic posession, you can find the proof in the Bible, where is told how Jesus Christ had to cure peoples who had more than half a dozen of FIENDs inside of their bodies... **2**QUESTION: What you think is the worst thing about this town of the butcheries? *****ANSWER: When you go to sleep in this place, if you have a reputation of incomformist or of friend of the animals, the FIENDs make the negative force enter your body while you are asleep and this force sucks you from inside... can you gauge the proportions of uglyness of this fact? The point is, I was very threatened by the FIENDs in my mother's place, and the devil acts like that, he is all the time trying to corrupt you moraly: to make you think that you have this or that defect, or to make you believe that you have not any kind of future. Well, it took time for me to realize it, thanks God my home was a happy one, till I had to leave it because in the last times, when I knew the vegans and frugivorians and mixed too much w/them trough their alternative presses, the story changed, it begun to be unbeareable, I felt that I didn't wanted to continue staying there, unbeareable for me wich I'm still growing, not for my mother who's a heavyly religious person, more vegetarian than me since the middle eighties and who's also untainted by any vice. It was very FIENDiac, I remember the last months before leaving Argentina (fOR eVER as I liked to say from that moment and as I still like to say) those months, the last months of the year 2000 were really hard to live for me, the feeling of loneliness and mental decease that I had in october of 2000 is something that I don't wish to anybody... But the germen of all this final painful moments in .AR where originated in other moment... and figure how much disrupted I was in that days (to be precise: the days of march 2000 when I've done the collection: "Gimme the Mingvs", compilation that'll came to the colly that I don't like so much like the others, and probable one of the reasons that added to my wishes of quitting the colly format, I don't know how I could greet some _decadent villeins_ that everybody knows in the scene and hates for their bad deeds since the BBS days of the middle nineties... yes, I am talking about nameless and /], to be precise: SORRY, we'll never wish to be like you... Marcelito- confidence-man, sorry, sorry, SORRY, specially to the public for bringing the subject again of what happens when in an enviroment like the scene where the brotherhood and palship is supposed to be strong for not degenerating our- selves into mercernaries of the first warez group that appears, the story of what happens when one betrays the whole scene publishing programs with ill- willed procedures... I APOLOGIZE for myself that I have brought him to your mind in this colly of 4 years before but how I could forget who this person was??! sorry... and the other is /] who publicaly hates Remorse saying that the members of Remorse are facists, while he himself is the son of a police- man. One of the works that in argentina is known as a work for fascists, that's why there, the youth hates the police an the police repress them brutally. So I think that for strata of the scene, more elite and more friends of mine than /] and the unnamed, r-gmtm100%.txt's greets could appear sort of done by a person w/maniac depressions, something that I am not, but in those days of 2000 I precisely begun to be ill of depression, because my leaving of mom's home was inminent. This, but not the logos, was what has made me loose regard in the colly format, I've begun to like very much the concepts you can design in the format pack, wich is obviously less limited than the collie format.... After all the point's: was very pointless to continue 'living' there and also very pointless doing something more besides not thinking what to do of my life. **3**QUESTION: what have you done after leaving home? *****ANSWER: First I went to North America, then to Europe... finally I've came to Asia, where I am living and where I was living for the last three years and a half, I am very much more better now, I HAVE TO ACCEPT THIS ALSO. I can note it even in my own self... when I used to pass a long night using the modem in that borough of Bs.As., and going to sleep at 3:30am or 4am, the following day I used to wake up with wrinkles and eyebags like if I was doing LSD and angel dust the entire night before, but no, it's because of the SHA of the places like this borough. Do you know what's the SHA? **4**QUESTION: No, what's the sha? *****ANSWER: The sha is the negative energy and in this place, the sha is everywhere, you see the difference of the place to other boroughs of Bs.As in a very differ- ent way. I have concluded that the place was different because of the deba- sed sorroundings that emanate this sha, specially the bloody gutters of the streets... So I have taken it too much seriously, if you are a person religious and also an artist, specially because of the combination of the two personalities, so why I, being like this, have to disrupt my developing letting me stay there with the inertia doing of me its own man of straw? Well, I am not fitted to live in a babilonically fallen place like the western side of the Buenos Aires City, the Capitol of the Republic of Argentina... but if adds to the subject and if you know about the situation in the latin american countries, I can say that for sure that there exist lots of persons who feel like me in latin american places, because they are SEEING HOW THE SCOUNDRELS THRIVE in the philosphy of the Big Brother, if you have read George Orwell you know what I'm talking about... seeing this and never being able to live w/out the fear of all type of injustices from the terrorist states... the need of finishing with it makes one decide of leaving the place... thinking always, if you are a white latin, as they call it there in argentina: on returning to "THE MOTHER LAND". Some Indians ask to me: "Hey, what's your motherland?" in the streets.. **5**QUESTION: So what's your Motherland? *****ANSWER: But I never remember of telling them that my (oldest) motherland is Scotland, then Albany and or Italy and or Spain, but if I have to trace my origins I conjecture my ancestors from my mother are african-scottish immigrants, her surname is kind of African-scottish, and other of our ancestors have a name wich appears to be euroindian, but for what I really know is that from my mother they're from Italy and Spain, euroindians, but I am latin... but I have came to this place and is precisely here where my true nature is exposed and can express to you with the most deep sincerity and power. I didn't liked the feelings I have get when reading the information in one of my collies done in this last days in Bs.As, it seem as w/the passing of years, just because I momentariliy retired from the scene (w/out formalizing a retirement, anyway) just because this 3 years that took to me to settle in India, I found that the sense of my own words that are saying something very concrete: "Finally I've decided to stop doing collies, this is the last one" --mKD/r81, October of 2000, in the collie: "bOARD dESIGN" for Remorse. "the final farewell to the collie format from myself is this collie" --mKD/r81, October of 2000, in the collie: "bOARD dESIGN" for Remorse. "But everything in this life has an end. And this is the end of my career as a collie compiler, not as an ascii artist/designer" --mKD/r81, October of 2000, in the collie: "bOARD dESIGN" for Remorse. You see, I never talked about any retirement: I think the text-art scene has a flavour of its own and the concepts are enough on themselves, it's not necesary to stuff packs w/files of this kind, but I think I needed to explain that I've never retired, I have just gone away from the place I was before, look how is the story: I could buy a PeeCee only after three years of being in India... and if you like advices I can tell you: the life w/out the computer, for a person whose life's the computer, it's clear, life like that is like death. Just think carefully if you really need to leave home, as I did and as sooner or later all do... Other point of my scene-life during the last year: the last year I had the inspiration to draw again, I have begun w/the Prana Express at school, and was a very crazy project, running a group w/out having a computer... well while I developed the packs in India there was no problem, but the times I have released from Nepal: (specifically the packs number 6 and number 9) I have had serious problems and commited some errors, as I explain in the info in this pack there's the remake of The Prana Express #6, please take a look to it, specially to the .NFO, there is the explanation on how more or less was the experience of running a text-art group w/out having the computer. **6**QUESTION: And what's next? *****ANSWER: MHHHHHHHHHhhhhhh... what's next: as you can see, AT LEAST nO-mORE-pRANA eXPRESS... I don't want to share groups w/Arl anymore, sorry but I am very tired of him, each time I've felt some misery while in the scene in .AR (And I'm talking about scene parties, meetings 2600, raves and the like) always the bad feelings were about something related w/him, although if you study him you're going to note that he gives very much importance to appearences... while I CAN TELL YOU I SAW HIM scalating from the dregs of argentinian under- ground bbs scene, (The first time I had news of /] was in 1995, around July) all for what? For 9 years later that worthless hobby he has of VJaying? I never went to a any of those shows organized by him so I can't judge, the only thing is that I believe that if you're a VJ you have to have a carefully chosen repertoire of digital-artz but being meticulous of not taking scene artz out of its context... I don't know, I KNOW ONE THING (more) I saw, around one year before about the .AR^Scene: they were selling email accounts w/the domain @scene.com.ar... I disliked this deeply, I saw it as what apparently it is in fact: a bunch of ppl w/out scrupules trying to make money all the time w/no regard for nothing. Concluding, I will want to form a big and strong group of digital artz, something w/the one and only end of doing art, but I will want to include all the types of digitals artz as possible, read: ANSI, ASCII, (OS and NS) XBIN, RIP, HiResolution GFX, Tracks, Lit and maybe also demos and intros, but that's not an easy task... and in a more distant future I want to create a firm of digital entertainment... (Gamez, Anime and so) But as I say, it is difficult to run a group w/the wish of becoming a new but it's the only kind of thing that will motivate me to eventually return and appear in the alternative(underground) scene of digital-artz... Who knows, maybe I will regain my taste for compilations, but what's interesting me, personally nowadays is Tracking and Ascii NS, two disciplines that will require too much practice from myself before you see something released, I can't give you something of low quality, we had a lot of that when we were 18 years, I'm 26 now... =] and other thing I am doing besides the literature and the projections of tracking and drawing NS, the other thing is coding, maybe I will end up being a demo-coder... I don't know by know, but more or less that, I will study mathematics, yes, but I'll continue being an artist, is not that I will become enginneer or consultant =] I want to be a professional programmer, and a famous poet/narrator, among other things... **7**QUESTION: wishes? *****ANSWER: I want to keep those things in confidence only w/myself, but I can say that I've seeing very crude things lately and I saw lots of different types of ruin of the life, one of them is embarrasement: I don't have bills and I don't want to have problems w/bills... I declare this wish. [%] End of the self-interview. @BEGIN_FILE_ID.DIZ *** sELF iNTERVEW -/- bY sGK ____________ ___ _____ ___ fare\\ / \__\_ \_\_ /__\_ \\ welL/ . / / / / / /_ _/ __/ /_/ . / / / . /<>> <--\\___/-/___/-/_____/__/ /_____/-----> tHE pRANA/X pRESENTS: /__/skavi/r81 .---------------------------------------. | sHREE sILAS gUHA kAVI: sELF iNTERVIEW | )---------------------------------------( | At first was the Commodore 64 in 1987 . : Then the XT/VGA/FLOPPY of the early : : nineties... By 1994 my life changed | . when I've received a present from my | | consultant friend Sebastian: the 286. : : And yes, after that, a trading peecee . . the 386 that belonged to BP/Prestige! | : Soon after it: the first Pentium, and . . soon another Pentium. My last peecee : : in occident was a K6-II... : Now it's time for a COME BACK, I HAVE . . RETURNED! I hope that now it's for : . ever: I COMEBACK and with another old . Pentium and the first production is: : : [ tHE dEATH oF tHE pRANA eXPRESS ] . . Explained, along with other facts of : . my personal life that I want to share . : Plase leech, read and meditate. --sGK : `---------------------------------------' @END_FILE_ID.DIZ SAUCE00sGK (sELF)iNTERVIEW sILAZ pRANa^eXPRESs 20042602zTEmpathy by Skaboy