find me on the internet
i never seem to leave
silently wishing for something more to do,
when all my hours have closed
and the daylight fades
into distant clouds
electronic wires carrying me
accross oceans, continents...
into worlds unknown
and unexplored
in all of this vastness...
could there be another?!
could there be...
lost in this micro world
because i dont want to face
the reality i form into my life...
all the pain, and lost...
all the waiting and anexity
here it doesnt matter
here i wont remember
to you lost,
and deserted...
to all you heathens...
i give a new religion-
life, i have found
in the breath
of the ocean mist...
that has elevated my spirit
there is nothing so impossible
to dreamers who never truly foresee
their own dreams
being just dreams-
nothing will be destroyed
i will find meaning...
and lead my flock to pools
of crystal clear knowledge
all these visions...
sewn deep into the fabric of time
the words pouring into this new bible
and testament...
spirtually guided...
my words meaning nothing to you
you are no longer enlightened
merely lost in the lies of the material world...
you would stone me as soon as you would
convert...
but if you could look
so deep into my eyes...
the windows of the soul
could you still deny
what i saw that day?
when my world was forever changed...
i...
strucked by lightening,
crushed my preconceptions
and awoken a dormant light
like a firefly,
my light shines from within
even now i feel the power deep within
my chakras turning
inspiring these words
so that i remember...
and it doesnt matter
the feeling...
its always been there...
i was blind once too-
it doesnt matter
the burning...
knowledge is pain-
never will i turn back
to be claimed as a pilar of salt,
like Lots wife, and all the people i know
who say they are my friends
only to betray me when suitable-
my path and destiny is as clear to me
as my future is in my dreams...
i fear nothing... i know what i must do
time is short, and there is no going back
distorted voices
guiding my paths
demon out of hell...
i wish i could look back,
on everything left behind...
lost life,
lost wishes...
forgotten dreams
light at best
the fog that covered this misconception
until the veil of night was lifted
and all things are seen
for what they are
dying embers of a charcoal fire
heat given freely
for the price of a few breaths
from the wind of my spirit
never extinguished...
visited by
the spirits,
of long dead friends
and relatives...
breaking the molds of former claymakers,
lost crafts from beyond
whispered words of poetry in my ear
so i could type them here
forgotten time wears no distance
killing mortals finds false justice
lightening from heaven
fire from the gods...
purifying man of imperfections
lost will
and little ambition
forget the words that made you cry
and the laughter that never died
and you will forget these reasons to live
such simple reasons to live-
time cant mean a thing...
forced upon meaningless creatures
gone without purpose-
i tracked...
and abandoned my sight
to some idol that stole it
from my eyes...
i fell to my knees
jism on my pants...
enlightment has only one fee
only one submission...
lost in this world, astranged...
like a newborn, whos eyes first behold this sphere,
poised to elevate my mental
but never properly prepared-
2 months, the fire burnt in my chest,
a pain ill never forget...
i learned that summer the meaning of friendship,
and the denile of fate
all lost and gone to shit...
in the depths of my spirit-
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