undergrown is dead. do you care? your life must suck, then..
oh yawn. i just finished reading bitch slap 6 and i thought it was time to
kill undergrown.
you ask, whats the link between bslap and ug, actually its pretty simple.
all of a sudden i had some sort of enlightment. a long-time homie of mine,
prisoner1, added a clear notice saying that he thought i was a big-time
lamer can i blame him? cuz of what i wrote in ug 10. at first i sed uh,
what the fuck but then i just read it again. oh damn.
ysee, i released ug 10 because i promised everyone i would. it wasnt even
fun to do. besides i was very angry at that moment, cuz like, i had to go
through dropping spastic that was getting pathetic then finding a group
to join nobody wanted to let me in and then finally, a day or two after
getting accepted into integrity, i do ug 10 the fastest i could and
release it in fifth speed and tell myself yea, they wanted it, they got
it. hope no ones ever gonna tell me anything about it, I DONT CARE.
then some days later a cool guy named saint sinner called me up and asked
me to take over undergrown. i said why not cuz like i said, i dont care.
but now i decided it has come to an end. undergrown eerie. and now eerie
is tired, so ug has to die. sorry ss : hope you understand.
alright, now for the funnier stuff.
you think im a bastard? fine. what i have to say is that i should NEVER
HAVE WRITTEN ANYTHING IN ANY FUCKING MAG IN MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE. always
thought everyone was free to have an opinion and share it with anyone. hey,
thats right. everyone has an opinion. everyones sharin it. just get on
irc or on any board and youll see: uh, thatguy sucks.. uh, thatmag
sucks.. uh, thatgroup sucks.. its just plain cool! now i thought that
writing my own opinions, correctly, in proper cough english, with all
the details and all the reasons why i have that opinion would be okay!
well looks like i was wrong. now, now, dont get me wrong. i never said that
you havent understood me. i said that I WAS WRONG. EE-RIE-WAS-WRONG.
i dont ask for excuses or anything, for im the fool. duh. should have
realized it before. and now, because of my big mouth, some people who used
to be friends with me think im all that.. if only they could call on the
same boards i call and see me act in the real modem life, theyd see im
that all-around cool guy everyone likes to hang around with. uh, maybe not
that much but still. people seem to think im a big bad fucker and then
i come and surprisingly im cool.
ommigod. this looks even more pathetic than my previous editorial .. just
an answer to p1: am i sad cuz im leaving my dads puter? uh, i guess i am,
somewhat. i use that machine to draw ansi and also for alot of stuff that
has nothing to do with the scene. and i enjoy drawing ansi, especially
since i joined integrity. its nice to hear no one raggin on ya for no
reason. silence is elite. having no access to irc is paradise.
a last notice. im sincere. if anyone was actually shocked by something i
wrote about him or someone they know or anything, well i guess i apologize.
seems like 90 of the people who hate me never even talked to me. hah. most
of them have the same opinions as i have, they just dont like the way i
share them.
now dont come and tell me im all weeping cuz nobody likes me. just like i
said earlier, i realize that some people start hating me and i know why
they do. lemme just say that im the same guy as the one who signed his 31
ansis Eerie Relic back in september 94. i tried to write this
newsletter just the way i am. its hard. prepared things never come out as
natural. its sad like that.
lemme just finish this here. wanna reply? go for it. i already think
releasing THIS is big-time pathetic cuz no one cares about it. so i cant
guarantee i will answer .. nah actually, just get in touch with me on the
toaster, on tokyo underground or professas illcomm. and then rag on me as
much as you want. i will read it all. its gonna be fun. and then youll get
an answer and i hope you wont realize as late as i did how useful it is
all.
thanks for reading. for those who are wondering, no i havent moved yet, and
it pisses me off, but i HOPE it wont be long. i guess im just too lazy